friday brain dump - look out below!

1. I'm PMSing like whoa right now. This doesn't give me much hope for getting pregnant this cycle. It's only our first time trying after the miscarriage, but I was hopeful for that January baby. Plus, the thought of having a baby with a due date the same month as my miscarriage (February) gives me fits. Anyway, I'm sad at the thought that I have to wait another month for another chance at baby #3. And the closer we get to baby #2's August 15th due date, the more depressed and hopefully about the whole thing I become.
2. I'm wrist-deep in planning for G's second birthday. This at least gives me something on which to focus in these couple of weeks of nothing I have. Invitations are going out today. Once they do, I'll post the invite here so you can see it! All I have left to do now is plan the food.
3. I'm currently a few chapters into Insurgent, the sequel to Divergent by Veronica Roth. I really loved the first book, so I'm hoping the sequel measures up. So far, it's good but not fantastic because the pace is kinda slow. I hope it picks up soon.
4. I'm bumming out right now about all sorts of stuff (see #1 above for maybe the reasons why). Maybe it's because my life is so in limbo and shifting right now. I have so much want in my heart right now and nothing seems to be getting fulfilled. I'm so bad about reaching out to people when I need something. Except for my Mom and the hubs, who take the brunt of my whining and neediness. And Michael, who will always pick up the phone to listen to me bitch but who's halfway across the country.
5. Meh. Gosh, I'm boring right now. Cute pictures of my kid tomorrow.

dumping forth from the brain

What an exhausting week! But I survived my first week without baby, so there it goes.

Friday Brain Dump
because my brain? it be fried.

1. So, biggest mention on my mind, week one since my D&C is over. I've learned a lot of things this week, such as if you tell people you are ready to talk on the phone about The Miscarriage, make sure you are ready to talk on the phone about The Miscarriage. I was, but I wasn't prepared for how many people actually wanted to talk about It. Also: be careful about bringing It up before other people do. Awkward.
2. Flowers are awesome. The hubs brought me pink roses today in celebration of baby's life. I so love that man.
3. G and I took advantage of the 74 degrees, with abundant sunshine and a brisk wind, yesterday and headed to the zoo. I have lots of pictures on my camera to upload, so I'll post a funny and not-miscarriage-related post tomorrow.
4. Speaking of the toddler, G is sick. At least, we think he's sick with the cold I caught last week. He woke up with a fever and it was 101.6 by nap time. He's got only a tiny one now, so I'm hoping for the end of the fever part tomorrow. Can we not just have it easy for a few days? I told the hubs - well, I kinda just demanded - that next weekend, I get Twilight and ice cream. He didn't argue with me!
5. My OB's office totally coded my D&C as an abortion. I'm pretty ticked about it because it means that my insurance denied the claim. I'm hoping the phone call on Monday makes this an easy fix. One moment I'm okay, and the next I'm crying because something like this slams what happened right into my face.

Gah, I can't even make my brain dumps non-depressing. I promise a cute toddler zoo post to make up for it.